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We Lost All Hope

by Hello Mabel

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1.
100 Reasons 03:07
I can think of 100 reasons why i'm still here, Of all paths to take why did i choose to stay? Apathetic & stoned, it's pathetic i know, i could've gone anywhere. I stopped making ends meet, took to life on these streets, now i won't be going. I'll walk this towns backstreets, The alleyways & car parks no one ever sees, No, i won't be going anywhere. I can think of 1000 stories that i could tell, Though the years would appear to have clouded the facts from truth. Tired & old, I'm growing cold, the fire's gone out now. Who'll look after me when i grow weary? Does anyone care? I'll walk this towns backstreets, The alleyways & car parks no one ever sees, No, i won't be going, No, i won't be going anywhere. (i won't be going) I dreamt I would leave, (I won't be going) The things i could've seen, (I won't be going anywhere) Exist now only in my dreams. Cos now I walk these streets alone, Silently, patiently waiting, for what? No one knows. . I lost my way so long ago. And now i haunt these streets a ghost, I waited too long yes i died many years ago, This old town she took my soul. I'll walk this towns backstreets, The alleyways & car parks no one ever sees, I'll stand back in the shade, Not coming out but not fading away, No, I wont be going, No, I wont be going, No, I wont be going anywhere.
2.
Loose Change 02:31
I'll serenade the pigeons, I'll sing to the streets, Busking for my breakfast though it’s not just making ends meet, I'll sing til I’m hoarse - strum til my fingers can take no more, But I’m not standing in the rain to watch their loose change hit the floor. It keeps me alive and keeps me out of line. It keeps me from wasting away my days and watching the seconds of my life, Fade away into nothing disappear to the past, Though i know I’m getting older and these days aren’t gonna last. These days aren't gonna last. I’m not seeking fortune i won’t find fame, But out the corner of your eyes you see someone with hope for better days. If I’m not chasing a blind sighted dream, I'm surely just waiting for someone to make a martyr of me. Make a martyr of me. Those dreams I never had And those never laid plans With a hope for nothing it was just something to do. No we’re not seeking fortune - we won’t find fame Didn’t pick up this guitar - so We could play their game Won't buy into the cliche - of what im supposed to be I'll stand here and sing and they'll take or leave me. Doing it for the love of it, just doing it for the fuck of it, there's nothing we’d rather do.
3.
I’ve walked a thousand footsteps counting cracks between the leaves, The sun it hasnt hit the ground round here not since i lost my self belief. And the plans we had to make our way back to a better day, Are now lost inside the troubled mind, Of a blind man that doesnt know he’s dressed up in disguise. As i kiss your thoughts goodnight and i hope you lived out every dream, The words are lost upon the wind as your lungs run out with all the screams. Wishing that these days were real not just emotion that i feel. This mountains high and i cant see The view that sits in front of me. Four days and twenty years have passed since that day it came to be, And i wont forget the whispers that you read out to me. As i turn the pages over pictures awaken faded memories Exasperated - I cant breathe So many things that could have been.
4.
Sheeps 03:12
You pack up your sons & daughters for the day, Like lambs to the slaughter you send them on their way, They blindly follow & they all look the same, Soon they'll all think the same way too as they're trained to follow rules. You better do what they say - follow orders and obey, Stand in line follow the crowd dont be yourself you're not allowed, Read our books follow our rules & don't question all you're taught in school, Cos we know what's best for everyone, Head down eyes to the ground don't make a sound. An apathetic ear tunes out the childrens cries, They don't catch your eye and they'll never look twice, Indignant only to their silent servitude, They've forgotten why they came and lost any hope for change years ago. Don't make a sound, maybe they won't notice you, Still can't forget how they could be so cruel, Through the eyes of a child where nothing seemed worthwhile, I saw the shape of things to come.
5.
I've done it again Stuck inside my own head And i’m falling, falling for you. My mind it aches And my brain's weighed down with guilt, But i’m trying to control this - i’m trying to do the right thing. I’m trying to control myself before i do something I will regret so i’ve got to get away from here For a long time, til i've figured out whats going on in my mind. I’ve done it again When I only wanted a friend & I didn’t see you coming, and there’s nothing i can do. I can’t fall again, I cant fall for you. And there’s a dark corner at the back of my mind Where I’m keeping these thoughts hidden for no one to find Yes I’m burying the secrets that i never can tell And they’ll never know... I’ve found all I've been searching for In the wrong place at the wrong time. All these secrets we just can’t ignore Will have to wait, for a better state of mind. I’ve no regrets Though we all knew it had to end And it wasn’t easy to admit the truth. But i won’t see you hurt Won’t see our bridges burned Just another facade you won’t see through Cos you could never see what was in front of you. I'm not burying the truth from myself this time Just keeping it all hidden so the rest don’t find That I'm burying these secrets just for a while Cos you don’t need know. I’ve found all I've been searching for In the wrong place at the wrong time. All these secrets we just can’t ignore Will have to wait, for a better state of mind. I must suppress, Sedate myself, Don’t fall. Run & hide, From what feels right, Just don’t fall. I've found all I've been searching for in the wrong place at the wrong time. I’ve found all I've been searching for In the wrong place at the wrong time. All these secrets we just can’t ignore Will have to wait, for a better state of mind.
6.
Just because you saw me smile, doesn’t mean I'm doing fine Just because I can stand up tall, doesn’t mean I'm invincible. The world is a scary place for me just like you, and this time I'm the one needing guidance from you. Now I'm lost and alone, No one knows what I need, what I see and what I feel, Now I'm lost and I'm scared, No one knew i needed them and no one thought to care. Just because I seem alright, doesn’t mean I've won the fight, Just because I'm there for you doesn’t mean i don’t need you too. All that im asking for is for someone to say the words, Tell me it will all be fine tell me its ok. I get tired of being the one who holds it all together when things inevitably go wrong, But not this time not anymore, no not this time not anymore, Ive had enough, Stop the planet, Cos i want to get off.
7.
Just to exist, Yeh that was it, Enough to survive, Enough to stay alive. I got fucked up And fell for love But it was just another means to an end, in the end. Bad decisions & stupid mistakes still somehow lead me here, To this everything to my everything somehow. You saved me from myself, And from anyone else, My own safety net, The hand that catches me when i fall and its all i need, To drag me off the ground when i’ve got nothing left. Building up a wall So i couldn’t fall Or feel or see, What’d become of me But we got fucked up And fell in love And i was the means to my end, once again. Bad decisions and naive mistakes they all lead me here, To this emptiness, to the edge of reality. Bad decisions and blindsightedness set me on the path to here To this end, to my end but i couldn’t see. I saved you from yourself, And from all the rest, Your own safety net, The hand that propped you up, kept you sane for all these years, Til i had to let go, I couldn’t hold on any longer. We lost sight of ourselves, And of everyone else, Not a safety net, But a weight tying us down, clinging on to what was left, Did it mean anything to either of us in the end?
8.
I know i never made it easier but you can't say i didn't try, And i know i didn't always tell the truth but i never told you any lies, I hope you know i'd change it all or at least i'd change the end, Cos we all stood to lose the only thing that meant something. And now i see why things never worked out, And now it feels like there's a whole other story to tell, I forgot my dreams for a moment back there, Cos we got lost and i lost all hope. I know i have it easy but you can't say i don't try, I work my fingers to the bone for this cos i have to make it right. And now i see the horizon coming into view, And now it feels like we might make it to the end, The reality is cruel but with no other choice to speak, We shut out eyes tight and we grit out teeth. I know how much you sacrificed i know you wanted it to work, I understand why you had to walk away and i thank you for doing it first. Cos i was gonna leave, Throw it all away, The efforts of all these years gone to waste, What happened to the fight and the certainty of our youth? It was nearly all lost to the fragility of the truth. Now you know this won't be easy but at least you're gona try, Now we know nothing can stop us now we know we've got it right, The burden's turned to purpose and become less harrowing but we all stood to lose it all lose everything, Yeh we all stood to lose the only thing that meant something to us.
9.
Bear 03:21
Finally free to blossom into the real me, to show the world who i am on the inside. Finally found the peace that ive been searching for, the harmony, this never ending journey. Ive been overwhelmed and filled with fear of predjudice and dirty looks, refusing to accept the person i always knew i was. My smile is wider, my soul is brighter, no longer feel downtrodden and all the past forgotten and my only regret is that it had to take so long. It took a while but ive found a place where this old heart belongs, a place to call my own and feel contented. And now that im here i aint ever turning back, im on a one way road to a new existence. No longer overwhelmed or filled with fear, the suns come up on a bright new day and now im ready to accept the person i always knew i was. So many feelings i never thought i’d share, so many answers to the things i never dreamed or dared to believe could be truth to me, and now im here.
10.
So Much More 03:12
Why does it have to be so hard, To say whats really on your mind? Why do you feel the need to punish me, When you know you should be worshipping at my feet. Whats the problem? Why is it so hard for you? Why is it so hard for you to say you’re beautiful? Im taking back whats mine, The love you never deserved or cared enough to let it shine I'm giving back whats yours, No longer gonna feel like im not good enough cos im so much more. Why is it so hard for you to have the balls to say whats true? There's only so much time before someone else comes along and fills those shoes.
11.
It's too easy to fall when the world rests on your shoulders, All too quickly the brightest of flames can flicker and fade away. But you didn’t have to turn your back on everything you had because it all still meant something to us. I hope the city streets are paved with gold And you can mean something to someone without the tales you told. Cos we were gonna rule the world some day With high hopes and empty pockets no one could stand in our way. The nights that never ended and the secrets that we shared - who knew it'd mean nothing in the end? It's too easy to fall when the world rests on your shoulders, All too quickly the brightest of flames can flicker and fade away. It was hard to read fact from fiction - it was hard to see the real truth, And after all these years i still feel i never really knew you. I hope the shores show you a horizon that never ends, And you can be true to yourself in the company of new friends. Cos we were gonna rule the world some day, With high hopes and empty pockets no one could stand in our way. Those nights that never ended and the secrets that we shared - who knew it'd mean nothing in the end? We walked for hours under neon stars, The dirty ocean waves soaked way all of our fears, We talked for hours of old wounds and stars, That air of cheap regret.. We watched the naivety of youth slip away, All innocence is lost along with trouble free days, We come to realise that all there was of a friendship is dead. (The air of cheap regret) Reaffirming who we are, & what it all meant. Do we still share memories, or did you forget?
12.
It All Ends 02:30
Any which way we go it all ends, And the footsteps that we laid don't matter any more, The sun sets and leaves only darkness, Leaving someone alone in the cold, Leaving someone cold & alone. You can hold yourself tight to try and keep the pieces together, But in the dark of this night if you let yourself slip, you could lose every last bit of yourself. So let the rain wash away your tears & in the morning when the sun shines you'll see that there was nothing left to fear, The light draws hope over a new day And new life grows where we once lay. Their cracked smiles won't save this day, Their kind words and stifled tears are too late anyway, All that remains are the fragile memories, the glorified legacy & the thoughts of those who loved you so dearly. As he finally lays down to sleep, Watching the comfort he once brought them crumble as they weep. As the lights fades on your last day on this earth, as undignified as you came, you feel that nothing has changed in yourself.

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All Songs written and recorded by Cait & Jen
(except lyrics for Lost upon the wind by Tez).
Mixed by John Kettle @ The Music Projects, Wigan.
Front cover artwork by Mark Bell illustration.

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released October 19, 2015

Jen Burgess - Vocals
Caitlin Costello - Vocals & Guitar
Tez Walker - Percussion & Vocals
Ryan Taylor - Bass & Vocals

Also featuring:
Tim Loud - 12 string, harmonica & vocals
Matty Humphries - Mandolin & vocals
Elinor Darlington - Violin
Ellen Howells - Fiddle
Kieron Bache - Shredding guitar solo & vocals
Sam Bell - Accordion
Soy Ferro - Vocals
Harley stewart - Cajon
Gang Vocals from:
Bobby, Cherub, Gazz, Froj, Lou.

Thanks to..
Our Mums. Cherub - for her unwavering dedication to helping
us get drunk and record an album and for knowing all the words before its even out. Gazz - for putting up with Jen spending most of her time of late in Mabel-land. Froj - for running to our aid when photoshop got the better of us. Tezla - for the constant support & encouragement from day one.

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Hello Mabel Warrington, UK

Hello Mabel is mostly an acoustic 2 piece consisting of Jen Burgess & Cait Costello singing miserable folk songs.

Occasionally they're joined by the Smashing Blouses;
Ryan Taylor - Bass &
Tezla Coil - Drums.

Their debut album 'We Lost All Hope' is out 2015 and features a folk-punk orchestra of friends and fellow musicians from the UK DIY scene.
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